Dizzying Day

There are days such as today where the time seems to accelerate into warp speed. I had always wondered where these types of days were when I was incarcerated and today I felt the full force. I have been cognizant to “make my days count” rather then to just count my days in recovery. This was almost the opposite of being in prison because I was counting down the days. I have been counting down the days until my family returns and there return is imminent which is causing the acceleration into warp speed. I thought this would be the time where I would be getting the house where were to live ready for my family but those plans have been altered. I spent the last two days searching for a house and it appears I have found that house.

Ironically (or maybe not so ironically) this house is located a mere two tenths of a mile from our previous house. This house is in walking distance of the school where my children will be attending in August and it is located very close to many of our friends. The transition for our children (and hopefully my wife) will be seamless because they know the location and know many people. It could be like returning after a two year hiatus basically all ready to “plug and play”.

The house is immaculate and it became very clear to me when I drove up to it that it wasn’t owned by people with children. I don’t know if this will be a help or hinder in the process but I can state the house is in very good shape, make that excellent shape. The landscaping is full of fruit trees and complete with a vegetable garden. Fortunately the rental payment comes with a gardener but it could have been fun tending to these grounds. The inside of the house is perfect for the four of us giving our daughter and son their own room. They have been sharing a room much to the chagrin of our daughter for the past two years and now it is time for them to have their own room My wife has had her own room much like me who has also had an own room for the past two years. I did share many of my rooms with another person but for the past four months I have had my own room and now it is time to finally share a room with my wife.

This house is the house I have been visualizing for the past two years. I really can’t explain this very well but for some reason I couldn’t get the thought of our old house out of my mind but when I would picture it I would see the house I saw today. I’m not sure if I can quantify this as the “Power of Intention” but I instantly felt at home when I drove up to the house. Everything about the house is perfect with one minor exception; for some reason there wasn’t a microwave oven over the stove much like in all of the other houses built at this same time. There was a standalone microwave oven set aside from the granite countertop atop cart just for the microwave oven. This seemed unusual but that was the only “negative” and I use that term very loosely because it isn’t a negative at all. The reminder of the house complete with a loft which would make a great game room for the children will suit our needs very well.

This is a process and unlike the other house I really liked this house is an “agency rental” which creates more of a process. There are forms to be filled out and some “hoops” to jump through. I am ready to jump through the hoops and I am now all about “full disclosure”. When I first downloaded the rental forms I cringed at the questions but the very nice real estate agent suggest building a “rental resume”. I had never heard of such a thing but did look at his suggestion on the website. Basically the “rental resume” is a human/personal touch to the rental application process. This is a place where I can have “full disclosure” and this is exactly what I am going to do. I will explain our story and provide references and background for everything I state. I have no idea if this will aid in getting the house but I am not about to lie or omit the facts. I won’t be blunt such as I really want this house after getting out of the “pen”! I think I can be a little more tactful explaining the situation to the best of my ability. It didn’t take me long to come up with this plan and I started to feel very good about a process that I was somewhat leery of.

This process is supposed to go quickly because the owners would like someone in the house by July 1st which is next week. I can’t believe July 1st is already here and I am supposed to depart for New Jersey on July 2nd. This doesn’t give me very much time to get things in order and oh by the way I still haven’t heard anything about whether or not I will be able to go on this trip. I have a telephone call to make tomorrow and hopefully I will have an answer. I know this decision is out of my control just like the decision on whether or not we will be able to rent the house. I trust and believe everything will work out for the best and the process is working out for a reason.

The day was dizzying as I had to drive 50 miles to the north for a training session which was allegedly going to last all day. Well all day turned into 45 minutes and it really was a waste of gasoline. With all of the technology that exists today this meeting could have been completed electronically thus saving everyone the gas money. Unfortunately the folks administering the training session weren’t very proactive but again something I cannot control. I did suggest on their comment cards to have the training session which will happen again next year, electronically thus saving on gas and the environment. Anyhow the training session was quickly over and I returned to the office. When I got back to the office it seemed as if everyone had caught the flu. My boss was out sick and a few others of my co-workers were going home early because they too were sick. I did my best to stay out of the germs way and before I knew the day had come to an end.

Yes, it was one of those days where I say “where did the time go”. Time can get away from me and it is up to me to make that time count. I did have a very good day and I continue on in recovery thinking honestly, open-minded and willing to do the right thing. The right thing is disclosing my situation which is simply telling the truth. I am done with hiding behind lies and seemingly taking the path of least resistance. Honesty is the path of least resistance for me and I embrace this concept with all of my being.