Cool Moments!

I had run the last four day s in a row so I was due a day off and I took it this morning. This was a very good morning; however; the bicycle tire I had re-fixed yesterday was again flat. My son had to ride his scooter to school and he has such a great disposition this did not affect at all. My children made their way to school and I stayed behind to do some work. I seem to get more done via email than any other method. People are more likely to respond to emails as opposed to voice messages. I don’t really understand this but I will do what works best. There is one particular person I have been dealing with over the past weeks who just doesn’t return telephone calls but promptly returns emails. This response is so prompt it usually occurs in the first five minutes after the email was sent.

Maybe the art of personal contact is dying off with all the advances in the communication age. I am amazed at people who sit in a restaurant and text instead of having a conversation. Are we becoming an insensitive lot? I don’t have the answer to that and I hope this is not the case. I prefer to speak with people although this isn’t in vogue. I like personal connections not the faceless age of emails and texting. There is a place for emails and texting but I believe there is too much reliance on these modes of communication. I spent 19 ½ months away from email, cell phones and texting. I have caught up in the past 9 months but I hope I never forget where I had come from.

The day went very well and today was supposed to be the day where are “visitor” came to stay with us. This is the same visitor who was supposed to arrive a few weeks ago but circumstances being what they were this did not happen. This visitor is a good friend who has been through a great deal over the past few months. Hopefully all of this will subside for this good friend and being our visitor will create some stability. We will have to wait at least another day for our visitor and once again living one day at time has its benefits.

I must report that I have a report on how many people read this blog on a daily basis and in this report also reveals how people get to this site. It appears there are many people who are NOT compulsive gamblers that come to this blog. These are people who have been effected by a compulsive gambler and judging by the searches these are significant others of the compulsive gambler. I have received emails from one particular person who has basically been decimated by a compulsive gambler. I certainly cannot speak for anyone who has been affected by my actions.

I can only continue on in my recovery and do my best to do the right thing. I do know that my actions have affected my family and thankfully in recovery the relationship I have with my family continues to get better with each passing day. I do hope that people that have been affected by a compulsive gambler that they seek out help such as the Gam-Anon program which is specifically defined for this purpose. I can only tell my side of the story but I do know that what I did was horrible for my family. I can’t change that I can only focus on today and today is a wonderful day.

This wonderful day included making waffles, pancakes and macaroni and cheese for dinner. Yes, I made the “special” waffles and pancakes again. It is very cool eating breakfast at dinnertime and my son loves this concept. My daughter opted for the macaroni and cheese while my son not only had the macaroni and cheese he also had a waffle. These are those incredible moments where the family comes together and we have dinner. It doesn’t matter what is on the menu it only matters that the four of us are together. There is no doubt that time moves so quickly and as I am reminded personal connections are the very best way to stay in line with anyone especially my family. I have an incredible personal connection with every member in my family. I love my family with all my being and spending these moments together mean the world to me.