Published?

I responded to an article written about embezzlement in tribal casinos where my name was mentioned and unbeknownst to me they published my email response. I guess I need to be more careful but what was written is not anything new. Here is my published version http://www.nativetimes.com/index.asp?action=displayarticle&article_id=6509 You may need to hurry because I think they charge for archived editions and they consider archive editions one day old.

I spoke with several people regarding my possible interview with Al Roker and the general consensus is that I should do the interview. I am speaking with my attorney at length this evening because we spoke earlier and he is not opposed to it but he needs more information. I have received some good advice; from the interview may hinder my recovery to the interview may help my recovery (nothing is cut in dry in my life!!). No, I do not get any compensation for the interview but I do get a free trip to New York and I get to meet the incredible shrinking Al Roker!!! I was also told not to use the Gamblers Anonymous name or I will be ostracize and this would definitely hinder my recovery. I could only use the Gamblers Anonymous name if they blacked out my face and didn't use my last name. Gamblers Anonymous does not seek any publicity which is an undeniable rule. I completely understand and will not do anything that jeopardizes the program. Additionally, I was told that this would be good for me because it would be like doing the fourth and fifth steps in recovery to a national audience. Here are the fourth and fifth steps:
4.) Made a searching and fearless moral and financial inventory of ourselves.
5.) Admitted to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

Today my attorney's investigator called me and told me he was going to pick up some new discovery from the courthouse. When I hear "discovery" my stomach does flips and sorry to say this but I feel like I am going to "crap myself". I sure hate what I did but it is reality and I have to face it. He did call back and said he would be coming by to discuss the discovery. Well the "discovery" was the videotape of my confession and nothing else. This was not news to me because I knew all about the videotape. My wife, the investigator and I watched the videotape and again I was reliving the past which hurts but I got through the tape and there is nothing on there that I didn't know about. The investigator asked me if I wanted a copy of the tape and I said no because I have enough reminders already. The one thing I can say about the tape; I was very calm and it was a relief to finally get all of my lying, cheating, and stealing out in the open. Unfortunately, I set myself up for this many years ago and this had to happen and now I have to pay the price.